Crying, Crying, and more Crying!

Don't get me wrong, motherhood is an absolute joy! I have never felt the love that I feel for Henri before. He brings joy and completeness to my and JP's life.....so does it make it wrong to want to throw him out the window at night???? Last night topped it off as one of the worst nights ever!

Henri began showing his tired signs around 7 pm so JP brought him upstairs and began our nightly ritual of swaddling, shushing, and Binky in the mouth--- At six months old we are still swaddling Henri (much to the chagrin of both sets of grandparents). I have managed to have him take a handful of naps unswaddled, but never to sleep at night. We are planning to break him of that over my holiday break--- Henri slept just long enough for me to make dinner, eat and take a shower, then he was up.....for the night. Henri cried, literally, all night long. We don't know what was wrong, belly ache, teething, overtired. Not knowing why your baby is crying is the worst possible feeling. We tried everything - swaddle, unswaddle, extra feedings, in bed with us, in his crib. It was an absolute awful night. JP and I went back and forth taking him (JP more than me). I have learned that I have no patience with a crying baby who can't be calmed. I pray that tonight will not be a repeat of last night. I never thought it would be this difficult working full time and having a baby :-(